Mary Ellen Davis at UIUC

Last night, our ALA and ACRL student chapters hosted Mary Ellen Davis, Executive Director of ACRL, and GSLIS alum.  She spoke about ACRL and the future of academic libraries, and also showed us the new ACRL recruiting video.  She did speak relatively realistically about the situation though.  More so than ALA for sure. [11 Jun 05: Changed ACRL link to new official one.]

I didn’t catch everything as well as I’d have liked as I was broadcasting the presentation and later meeting as a LEEP class for some of our distance ed students.  I was providing some description and commentary and passing along questions to Mary Ellen via chat software while streaming the audio.  Of course, it will be archived so I can go back and listen to it.

After the meeting was over, Mary Ellen joined several of us ACRL student members (Annie, Emily, Laura, Amber and me) for coffee and chocolate at Moonstruck Chocolate Co.  It was very nice to sit around in a small group and talk with her.  She is a very nice and gracious lady; quite interested in what we are up to as the 1st student chapter of ACRL, why we decided to form a chapter, etc.  Seems Library Journal may be interested in our story too.  We are working on some ideas to help spread the idea to other schools.  Luckily, we will have a little continuity into the fall for next year.  We hope to be able to come up with some ideas for ALA Annual.  With Mary Ellen’s help we also have some others to help spread the idea.  Guess I better get that web site moved into its permanent space.  Kind of busy finishing up the semester though at the moment.

It was a nice evening though.  After Mary Ellen hit the road back to Chicago, the rest of us went to see some live, local music after pausing for a bite to eat and some quality beer.  One of our posse wanted to go see the band, Theory of Everything, as she knows the bassist, Paul Kotheimer, who works at Circulation at the main library.  They were pretty good so I picked up their CD, ‘Evolution Of The ‘Art.  I was quite excited when I listened to it this morning as it has a song I heard on our local commuity radio station a couple of weeks ago that I just had to have but didn’t catch the name of or who it was by.

Hug A Republican

Have you hugged a Republican today?
Have you tried to spread your love to those who love the NRA?
Though they might be quite reluctant cause they’ll wonder if you’re gay.
You should hug a Republican a today.

The rest of the CD is pretty good too.  But getting my hands on this was a definite bonus!  That Trois Pistoles Belgian Dark Ale I had from tap was awesome too.  Haven’t had a beer like that since I was in Belgium almost 20 years ago.   Maybe if the weather gets nice again right after the semester ends I’ll be able to walk down to Crane Alley and have one or two some night (or two).   I sure hope they don’t swap it for something else before I have a chance to savor another.  I don’t drink much anymore but that was a beer to change a man’s mind.

Origin of Love :17: resonance

Origin of Love – Hedwig and the Angry Inch (Hedwig and the Angry Inch original motion picture soundtrack, © 2001)

I’ve only had this 9 days.  I 1st watched the movie on 9 Aug & bought the soundtrack 11 Aug 02, but I love it.  I’ve listened to it at least once and usually twice a day since then.  Hedwig has certainly entered my list of favorite movies about the search for identity and for love…  It may be a bit much for some, but the pain of the search (for identity and love) has rarely been better captured or expressed!  A beautiful little story; of course, not literally true, but I have that same pain in my soul.   

Plato’s Symposium… 

…you had a wound so familiar… 
…that the pain down in your soul
was the same as the one down in mine…

Goes back to the immediate motivation/purpose for this CD.  It never went to her, though for good reasons. 


I still love this movie and this soundtrack.  Just as I love Better Than Chocolate.   I may be a heterosexual white male but there is absolutely no reason to exclude other people’s search for love and identity from my own.  The goal is the same for all of us.

This is the final song on resonance.  There was a little time left for a short song and I put off finalizing the disc for a few months trying to decide if I was going to add another.  Eventually I decided to just stay with Origin of Love.  I am glad I did. 

This CD never got delivered to the person it was intended for.  It had morphed into something vastly different than what it had started as.  I maintain that it is still related and does serve as a decent introduction to me for some purposes and for some people.  Just not the one that started it all.

I never wanted anything but to be this woman’s friend as she clearly needed one.  But I guess having a husband and a boyfriend were already enough.  Thing’s got stupid real fast and I had to be the bad guy in some people’s minds.  Small minds….  Her boyfriend, who was supposedly a friend of mine, took to telling me all sorts of tales about how I was disturbing her, frightening her, etc.  But let’s see, we did most of our talking by email.  She always responded quickly, nicely, and encouragingly.  If I was a problem for her, why did she write back?  Why did she encourage me?  Why didn’t she tell me to go away?  Why…?

Well, I’m the one who ended up suffering a fair bit of damage over this.  I skipped a major social event put on by other real friends and could not explain why to them.  That was probably the most painful part of it all for me.  They accept me for who I am and understand that I mean no one any harm.

I know men are supposedly assholes, but seriously, I want no romantic entanglement with any woman who has a husband and/or a boyfriend!  But that doesn’t mean I am going to judge you or not want to be your friend.

I’m not sure what lessons I learned from this whole farcical scenario.  But I do know that people need to be very careful about the verbal bombs they just drop in people’s laps.  You never know what chord you may strike in the other person that will continue to resonate long after your off-hand comment.

Broken Bicycles / Junk :16: resonance

Broken Bicycles / Junk – Anne Sofie Von Otter Meets Elvis Costello (For The Stars, © 2001)

Another one I lucked into.  I took TJ to downtown Normal (3 Jun 02) and we stopped in Mother Murphy’s and I grabbed this since I’m an Elvis fan.  The queen of European opera does pop.  What an incredible voice and what an incredible fusing of a Tom Waits song and a Paul McCartney song respectively. 

…September’s reminding July…

Buy! Buy! Says the sign in the shop window
Why? Why? Says the junk in the yard

Seasons can turn on a dime
Somehow I forget ev’ry time
For the things that you’ve given me
Will always stay.  Thery’re broken
But I’ll never throw them away. 

Why here?  The music is incredible – accordion, cello, harmonium… 


I absolutely love that line about September reminding July.  So much said in three simple words.

Semptember’s reminding July.
It’s time to be saying goodbye.
Summer is gone, our love will remain,
Like old broken bicycles, out in the rain.

ASvO

Come Away With Me :15: resonance

Come Away With Me – Norah Jones (come away with me, © 2002)

Someone left this CD in the computer lab early in the summer & I borrowed it out of the lost & found.  What an incredible young talent & she even wrote this song.  I love this CD!

…and I want to walk with you on a cloudy day…
…while I’m safe there in your arms…


This is about the point where the notes really tapered off and got left unfinished.

I do still love this CD.  It is MUCH better than her 2nd one.  I’m not sure what the difference is between them but the sophomore effort doesn’t hold a candle to her debut.

Again, by this point we’ve moved fully into the concept spawned by the off-hand comment and have left the initial purpose as a means of introduction far behind.

Theöne Redux

Well, I made it through my story-song just fine yesterday.  My left leg started shaking pretty violently towards the end for some stupid reason.  Residual embarrassment from last week? 

The extra week actually allowed me to make it more my own and to say it as a poem vs. singing it—which was terrifying to me.

Theöne – Lambchop

Dedicated to the woman I have not yet met.

Best of all
are the things that’s in this world
that’s worth a look.
You make it hard when I’m with you
scary sights.
All the things that haven’t happened
but just might.
Don’t think it over so quickly.
Look around.
I’m still here.
Take your time,
but not a year.
Please make me shudder
when you are near.
You are the one.

You undermine
all the terror and the grace
of my belief.
I want to shake up your whole life.
Fearing that
all this specialness will fade with just a kiss.
I think I have a solution.
Take a walk,
hold my hand,
don’t say a word,
I’ll understand.
We’ll change the world,
make no demands.
You are the one.

Have we lost sight
of the sacrifice it takes to make a life?
If it’s ours, then so be it.
It’s just my wish
that our world be that of reproductive bliss.
It’s just a thought,
there’s no pressure.
Gomer Pyle
was just a man
who served his country
as best he can.
I’m in a state,
you are the flag.
You are theone

But don’t you know?
This must be true
I can do nothing
but think of you
and there’s the phone
and here’s the number.
You are the one.

This song is very important to me.  It represents the realization that a budding relationship is going to have a profound impact on both lives. 

I can give or take the "reproductive bliss" part as I have two wonderful adult children.  At this point in my life it would take a very special woman for me to want to have more children.  I have learned the long, hard way not to rule out the possibility.  I have made far too many statements in my life that I have had come back to bite me in the ass.

Even more important are the ideas of it being hard to be with someone in the "scary sights" sense and the inevitable shaking up of one’s life.  I want nothing more in the world than to have an intensely meaningful, long-term relationship  with a very special woman.  But, that thought right now is terrifying in the sense of how would I even begin to add those complications to an already overfull life of graduate education.  I have received much well-meaning advice from friends and family "to just go for it."   But I don’t because there is just too much going on, or not going on but should be,  that I don’t see how I can even consider it.

So for now I am content to have all the wonderful women friends that I do that let me practice being the kind of man that I want to be in a safe environment for them and me.  I love them all dearly!

I Don’t Know Enough About You :14: resonance

I would like to dedicate this years CD (Valentine’s Day 2002) to two of the many souls we lost this past year.  Maybe if the world payed more attention to what they both sang and wrote about we wouldn’t suffer the loss of so many…  [George Harrison was the 1st dedicatee]

Peggy Lee 26 May 1920 – 21 Jan 2002 (Norma Deloris Egstrom)

I Don’t Know Enough About You – Peggy Lee (Sentimental Journey, © 1992, recorded 1945)

A lady who sang about all angles of love…  desire, loss, blues, …  And, oh, that voice…

"Her wonderful talent should be studied by all vocalists; her regal presence is pure elegance and charm." – Frank Sinatra, 1994

Original notes contained her Chicago Tribune Obituary of Jan 23, 2002.

Valentine’s Day 2002  song 12 of 20

falling is like this :13: resonance

falling is like this – Ani DiFranco (out of range, © 1994)

you give me that look that’s like laughing with liquid in your mouth
like you’re choosing between choking and spitting it all out
like you’re trying to fight gravity
on a planet that insists
that love is like falling
and falling is like this

Just about the best little song about love ever written I think…

If you ever want one Ani CD, this is the one!  She got ‘distracted’ for a while by love & chilled on the ‘overtly political songwriting’ .  It is just about as perfect as an album can be.  If you desire Ani for her overtly political songwriting, which is amazingly perceptive, then I’d make other recommendations.  If you want the downside of the aftermath of the distraction of love, get Dilate

Valentine’s Day 2002  song 9 of 20


Any serious introduction to someone should include their views on love shouldn’t it?

Perfect Fingers :12: resonance

These next 2 songs [only one here], particularly, are about ‘touch.’  I’m actually compiling songs for a CD about ‘touch,’ but that’s a different story. 

The gift of touch is even better than that of music, but it is necessarily more restricted.  Don’t ever lose this gift or you will have lost almost everything.

A comment about the lack of touch was the motivation for beginning this project.

Perfect Fingers – Tammi Greer (Better Than Chocolate, © 1999)

You’re a wild one,
I like your smile,
You do amazing things…

Please, hold me
Please, know me
And know everything
it’s all right here…

Valentine’s Day 2002  song 7 of 20


What started this?   What do fingers have to do with an introduction to me?

Night :11: resonance

Night – Feisty (Better Than Chocolate, © 1999)

Tell me that you need something that I can give,
a better way to purr inside your skin,
please make me me again.

This & #12 are from one of my favorite little ‘love story’ movies.  It’s even higher on my list of soundtracks.  A beautiful little story about the search for love in this world.

Valentine’s Day 2002 song 5 of 20


This is from a wonderful movie about the search for love and identity in this world.  But, if you have issues with lesbians and transvestites you might want to find something else.  But if you are willing to think a little broader—that in fact people of all stripes struggle with issues of love and identity—then this along with Hedwig and the Angry Inch are wonderful fare in that department.

Please make me me again.