I finished my paper today, before class which is most helpful. Not my finest product, but not my worst either.
Class is over and I can breathe (metaphorically) again. Spent some time with my aggregator after I got home to check on the state of the world. And while I got a few laughs, I mostly just cried.
Bread and circuses people. Bread and fucking circuses.
Almost everything I was taught as a child about this ‘great’ nation of ours was a lie. A great big fucking, let’s keep it simple for the children, lie. Well, it got you over 20 years of my life. And you currently have my son’s in your hands America—literally.
But guess what? I’m putting you people screwing up this country on notice. I’m taking it back from you. All you fucks who think that your God is the one in charge and that you have a direct phone line to him. Judges like this asshole. Pricks who can say shit like:
"No, no, I let others who are braver and tougher than me fight my battles." —a middle-aged man tells of his military service after suggesting that the Veterans for Peace (who installed the 1000 crosses on the beach) be tried in Baghdad with Saddam.
See here; from Ann at Sivacracy.net.
Your government uses people’s deaths for their own PR purposes. Shameful cannot even begin to describe this. Are you next?
Who’s next? It is not just a few low-level troops people. As usual though, it is the troops who die and pay for the crimes of those in charge. How many of our Senators and Representatives have children in the military? Hell, how many of them have served? Why aren’t the twins serving George? Let those bimbos of yours die for your freaking causes!
Women can’t get birth control, but convicted rapists and pedophiles can get Viagra from Medicaid.
I am pissed America, and I’m pissed at at least half of you! Now I do know that many of you really are good people that are just struggling to get by. But pull your heads out of your own myopic egos, and get the hell out of Wal-Mart, and start paying attention. You can cry morals all you want, but as long as you are supporting the current administration you are fooling no one but yourself. You are complicit in everything they do. Because they are doing it in your name!
And don’t think that most of the other half of you are off the hook either! Democrats. Baah! You are just as much the problem here. Most of you are just sleepwalking through the fucking mall too! Those idiots in the ‘minority’ party have completely rolled over and are willing to take whatever the Republicans dish out. When they do have a ‘gutsy’ response it is to try and out GOP the GOP. Spineless. Fucking. Crooks. All of them.
Wake up people! Corporations and politicians of all stripes are stealing your own country out from under you, and pissing off even our best allies in the process, while your loved ones die for their causes. You should be very, very afraid. But not of what they want you to be afraid of; that is all pure distraction to keep your mind off the real horrors.
I know I probably should sit on this. No, I know that I shouldn’t post it. But I am mad as hell. I just want to have a simple life, get some more eduction, become a professional librarian and feel good about helping people with their need to know and learn, watch my kids grow up, fall in love again, grow old peacefully. All of which makes me complicit too. I’m not letting myself off the hook, lest you think otherwise. Which is another reason I am so pissed off, because I also have to be pissed at myself.
But I am changing. I am going to find a way to make a difference in the world. It is going to take sacrifice on my part, and it will be hard; but I will find a way to feel proud to be an American again. The world and my fellow Americans, even you sleepwalking, clueless ones, deserve much better.
There is danger in the outskirts of town, and in what you don’t say.
. . .
Sometimes I can’t sleep
I can’t keep all these feelings at bay
I am rage, I am sorrow, and grief all alone in my way.
. . .
But for now I live with myself
in the middle of the night.Stand Up - Ferron from Better Than Chocolate sdtrk
Peace and love to everyone of you! That is the only thing that will save us. And not some freaky abstract kind of love of humanity bullshit, but love each and every individual human that you come in contact with kind of love. Yes, it’s hard, maybe even impossible seeing as we are all fallible human beings—but if we don’t try, and keep trying each and every time we fail, then we are doomed.