…the size of planets

I’ve listened to this one enough now to have an opinion.  Third time today even.  Go buy it.

Alright, here’s a review.  And even though I think most music reviews are overly pretentious, this is a dead-on review.  Here’s another, although not as good.

Haley Bonar. …the size of planets

This is what I said the day after I saw her live (excerpt):

I’m not sure what I think.  The lyrics are much easier to understand on the CD.  It still sort of seems like music to commit suicide by though.  That is not meant as a disparagement by the way.  Just sort of the mood it evokes.  But hey, she uses an ellipsis in her title so it has to have some redeeming qualities.

I have a much better idea of what I think now.  I love it.  I still agree with the above, but read the 1st review I linked to if you want my thoughts unpacked some.

I’ll just leave you with the lyrics of "sun don’t shine":

before i lay my head to rest,
i’m gonna get on a train and head out west.
lose myself in the sand and the wine.
god don’t go where the sun don’t shine.
lose myself on the side of the road,
where the buzzards bleed and the rain don’t go.
the world is made of many things,
but god don’t snow on the angel wings.
there’s always someone waiting at the gates.
i’m gonna roll away to heaven on a pair of roller skates.
no more waiting for my time to pass.
life’s too short to make things last.
he says, "ain’t you tired of being so sad?"
the bottle in your veins won’t hurt so bad.
you can run away with me to the sunny sky.
we’ll both be warmer when we die.

before i lay my head to rest,
i’m gonna get on a train and head out west.
lose myself in the sand and the wine.
god don’t go where the sun don’t shine.

haley bonar © 2002
(lyrics from the CD liner notes, are a bit different as sung)

 

You know, I have never seen the Grand Canyon.

Dictionary Day, now this is a holiday that I can get behind

Thanks to Angel, The Gyspsy Librarian, who got it from Jessamyn, Happy Dictionary Day.

Happy Birthday Noah Webster!

I was commenting on a comment that Angel made at my "Librarianship as Penance?" post:

I think you are right. There is a bit of the confessor in some patron/librarian transactions. [And yes, I had to look up "confessor" to verify that it is used for both the one who confesses and the priest who is confessed to.]

In honor of Dictionary Day I may do a bit of etymological research to see how/when the Catholic Church managed to dork this word up.

Here is what my Oxford American Dictionary and Language Guide (1999) have for "confessor":

1 a person who makes a confession. 2 a priest who hears confessions and gives spiritual counsel.

I had to look this up because most of these types of words follow the -or and -ee convention in English, but then I remembered the "Father Confessor" phrase [Another anthropological acquaintance].

So, I’m off to visit the OED to see if I can disambiguate this for myself.

Well, that little side trip wasn’t much help.  Darn OED let me down for once.  The OED lists the 1st use of sense 1 as ante (before) 1300 and the 1st use of sense 2 as 1340. 

I’ll have to see if I can’t research this a bit more later this week.  And yes, I know I could possibly find the answer on the web, but I prefer books for this sort of work.  If that fails, then I will turn to the net.  Of course, any of you serious reference types who would like to provide an answer, please feel free.  Let your inner word geek free and let me know what you find.  Otherwise I may just report back what I find.

I guess a related question is if anyone is aware of any other "weird" words that act like this in English?  That is, use the same form for the one who does and the one who is done to.

So although I am still at a bit of a loss, I was able to use my dictionaries to verify that confessor is used both ways, at least in some religions—so Happy Dictionary Day.

What word(s) did you look up today?

This is more like it

Thanks for this one Angel!

 

Wizard
40% Combativeness, 20% Sneakiness, 88% Intellect, 16% Spirituality
Brilliant!  You are a Wizard!

Wizards are spells-casters who study powerful arcane magic.  While Wizards tend to be pretty fragile, some of those spells can pack quite a punch.  Unlike Clerics, Wizards aren’t as good at fixing people as they are at breaking them, so watch where you toss that fireball…

Your most distinctive trait is your intelligence.  You’re probably well learned and logical, if perhaps a bit fragile.


My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 19% on Combativeness
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You scored higher than 29% on Sneakiness
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You scored higher than 90% on Intellect
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You scored higher than 3% on Spirituality
Link: The RPG Class Test written by MFlowers on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

This is far more like me, for once, even if I could’ve answered a few of the questions differently.  I certainly played lots of mages in my days of AD&D.  And for once I even knew the pop culture references in this quiz.

I wouldn’t care if I’m a "bit fragile" if I could cast a few fireballs, hehehe.  Of course, a few more subtle spells could be useful too.

I gotta say that’s a mighty beefy looking wizard, though.  And what’s with that sword at his side?

Walt’s questions

Walt Crawford asked a few questions in the most recent Cites & Insights 5:12, Nov 2005, which I will address here.  You should go read the entire issue, though.  Good thinking and writing as usual.

Maybe all of this is irrelevant to C&I readers. Do you believe the most widely read library bloggers act as gatekeepers—that they do or can manipulate "information cascades," controlling the way we think about library issues? I’m skeptical, at least in our little corner of the blogosphere (4).

Do you really want to know what some array of strangers concluded about an article—or do you want to be guided by a handful of "trusted strangers," the bloggers you believe offer good advice (5)?

I’m going to take the 2nd question first as it is an easy one, although you should read the article to get a sense of context.  I would much prefer the latter.  I want to know what people with whom I have some context, and possibly contact, think and value.  I could care less what the hoi polloi think.  I could care less what is the biggest selling movie or CD, or the most watched TV show, etc.  Similarly, I could care less what the masses think of a piece on the web.  Just as with the rest of pop culture, I am likely to devalue something out of hand the more it is valued by the masses.  And yes, I sometimes find myself liking what is grossly popular.   But seeing that it is a distinct rarity—it is an "elitism" that serves me in good stead.  And no Walt, I do not feel morally superior for it.  It is simply a choice.

OK, now for the 1st question.  Take a deep breath Mark.  "If you can’t say something nice don’t say…."

I have been thinking about this question in a very tangential way a lot lately.  I have been wrestling with the idea of removing most, if not all, of the "most widely read library bloggers" from my aggregator.  Why would I do this?  Because they are generally serving very little purpose for me anymore, in several ways.

Most of them write short posts often, or mainly, linking to other items.  I find many of these on my own already.  Most new to me bloggers I find from the folks who aren’t read as widely.  Also, I prefer pieces that actually say something, something that can be engaged with, or that makes me think.  Many of us keep referring to this blogosphere as a conversation.  I have even used this metaphor often, but I am beginning to move away from it as description because what I am finding is mostly bar conversation, small talk, and out right talking past or around each other. 

An example of the last is the recent "discussions" of the digital divide.  Everyone had something important and relevant to say, but it seemed as if no one was really willing to take the time to see that and to actually have a dialogue on it.  In the end, their view and their way of expressing it was "correct."  I think this is such a shame because if we can’t address the topic amongst ourselves, how in the world is a politician, a policy wonk, or the normal person going to address such a convoluted and clearly controversial topic?

Let’s make a short diversion to Christina Pika’s post "The various uses of the term "gatekeeper."  "A gatekeeper is a boundary person – one who is at the interface of two
groups or domains. The gatekeeper may be the one to open the gate (span
the boundary) or the one to bar passage between domains."

The most widely read folks are the people who are looked to for various reasons.  While I do not want them to be gatekeepers in the latter sense Christina states, I do hope that they might serve in the former sense.  I also hope for much more from them.  Now let’s take a quick aside here.  while it may be unfair of me to expect such things from these folks please notice that I said "hope for" and not "expect."  I expect them to do what they want and what they think works for them.  I realize that I am free to take what they provide or ignore it.  I am simply working through my thought processes here and commenting on what I "see."  I hope that people will feel free to point out flaws in my thinking, or other ways of looking at the issues.  I am still after dialogue in this blogging thing, even if I am expecting less of it than I used to.

So, I hope that they might help guide some of the discussions.  Maybe help to facilitate other voices.  I have seen some of this.  But I often see the opposite.  In one particular case, or maybe I should say 10 now, they have chosen not to participate at all nor to promote the "fledgling" work of others.  Again, their prerogative.  I just hope for more.

If any of them say something of real interest (to me) then I will probably hear about from someone else [See below].

Many of them have pretty much ended up doing mostly self-promotion.  And, of course, they are free to do so.  These are talented people who have much to offer of themselves, and they do.  But I am not getting much from them by seeing their presentation slides.  There is not enough context in these to actually get much from the slides.  You had to be there for the presentations to make much sense.  Again, I hope for more, mostly in the way of dialogue.

There are other reasons but I’ll keep them to myself for now.

Now to Walt’s question—"do or can [they] manipulate "information cascades," controlling the way we think about library issues?"

First, I’d like to tease those two clauses apart a little.  One concern is is this intentional or not?  Another is the active connotation of the verbs "manipulate" and "control."  A third is the difference between the two clauses.

Bypassing the question of intention for a moment, these two verbs imply a certain level of activity.  Might there be a more nuanced way of asking these questions?  Might these results occur without the active sense of an agent causing them?  My answer to both is a "yes."

I also see a difference between "manipulating "information cascades"" and "controlling the way we think."  For one thing, I might be willing to argue that what happens is controlling (in a limited sense) which library issues we think about and only in a much more limited sense how we think about them.

So, I do see some of this happening.  It is often the case that as soon as one of these "widely read library bloggers" put something on their blog that I see the same thing linked to by many others.  "So-and-so said this" or "What’s her name pointed at this."  "Isn’t this cool?"  This often happens with little critical commentary on the part of the linker.  I have certainly linked to some of these folks, but I generally try to add some comments considering it from another angle or, heaven forbid, even disagree with it.  No, no examples because I am keeping this as generic as possible.  I have met several of these "widely read library bloggers" and I like them.  They are good, well-meaning and highly interesting people.

Do the "most widely read library bloggers" intentionally do either?  I sincerely doubt it.  But I do think it happens somewhat.  Again, I’d like to remove the intentionality and even the agent as direct cause.  I’d also like to think that librarians can generally think for themselves.  I know we are only human and that we are susceptible to the same fallibilities as all humans, but if we, as a group, cannot think for ourselves then society is even worse off than I already think.

That’s my answer and I’m sticking to it until you help me change my mind via real dialogue.

Not doing so hot, although the weather is beautiful

I haven’t been doing so well lately, either mentally or emotionally.  At least I’m not all weepy this time.  So anyway, I tried to cheer myself up last night by watching one of my favorite movies about the search for identity and for love.  Except it only made me lonelier this time.  Because everybody gets their love in the end (oops, no pun intended).

So I’m going to try again tonight.  Maybe I’ll try The Incredibles or Amelie.  I actually put Amelie in 1st last night but I decided I was in no mood to read subtitles.  The Incredibles is highly oriented around family and I don’t really have one anymore, so….  There are other options I guess, such as David Byrne’s True Stories, among others.

One thing that did cheer me up a bit though is the WorldCat Find in a Library record for Better Than Chocolate (the movie referenced above for those too lazy to click the link). 

Check out those subjects: 

  • Family–Drama
  • Lesbians–Drama

Hehehe.  Maybe there is hope for America yet.

OK, I just lost a little hope looking at the subjects listed for Better Than Chocolate at UIUC:  Erotic films.  Feature films.  Comedy films. 

Erotic films?  Whatever.

Parkland isn’t much better.  Homosexuality in motion pictures.  Lesbianism–Drama.  Erotic films.  Feature films.  Comedy films.

Homosexuality in motion pictures?  Kind of freakin’ clinical, isn’t it?  I’m going after a scope note for that one.  BRB.

Crap.  There isn’t one.  Still, I’m going to go out on a limb here.  I don’t think that’s right.  It isn’t a movie about homosexuality in motion pictures.  It is a movie with homosexual characters, lesbians and transgendered, specifically.   So Lesbians– or Lesbianism–Drama is much better.

Can’t really tell the difference between Lesbians and Lesbianism from the online LC Authorities, but either has to be better than Homosexuality in motion pictures.

But hey, I much prefer the juxtaposition of Family–Drama and Lesbians–Drama.  Bless you WorldCat!  Maybe there is still hope.

Here’s hoping for a better night at the movies tonight.  All of the movies mentioned here are highly recommended, by the way.

Paul Ford’s Ftrain.com

If you are looking for something good to read, and for some of you something non-libraryesque, you really should check out Ftrain.com

Lots of good, short essays.  In particular see Followup/Distraction.

I figure there are two different kinds of distractions: the wide kind and the narrow kind. The Internet is the widest possible distraction because it lets you wander so far afield that getting work done if you are, like me, the distractable sort of person–getting work done is almost impossible. I’m not the sort of person who can read a book with footnotes and ignore the footnotes. I have to read every footnote. I often prefer the footnotes because they point in so many directions. But when wide distractions are available I avoid the narrow distractions, and those are the useful distractions.

Aaah, footnotes….

Or, there is always the Laundromat: Some things just suck.

People get savage. They hover like birds of prey, waiting for a washer to open so that they can swoop down and fill it with their stinking socks. There is no clear hierarchy; there are no rules or clear order of succession. It’s every laundrygoer for themselves. The effect is ugly. But the dryers are even worse than the washers. That’s where it gets brutal.

Librarianship as Penance?

I have a confession to make.

I was a bad person earlier in life.

My first full-time job was on a nuclear missile site in West Germany at the height of the Cold War (1978-1981).  I then spent over 20 years in the Army.  I voted straight ticket Republican for years in my own self-interest.  I took the easy road and rarely questioned my larger role and responsibilties to the world-at-large.  This could be teased apart in more detail, but it only becomes more damning to do so.  And what is really at issue is that I do it for myself, and not publicly.

The other night after our oncampus day for my distance ed class, the instructors and about half of the class went out for dinner.  It was quite an enjoyable time.  At some point in a conversation with another student, one who is becoming a librarian to leave her long-term employment in a job of personally (to her) questionable merit, I mentioned that one of my hopes in becoming a librarian was that I might do some good to offset the harm that I had done through earlier choices.

Another student across the table said, "Wow! I never thought of librarianship as penance before!"

Well, neither had I, nor do I, nor my other conversational partner.  What she, and I, think is that we are making a moral choice now, hopefully to offset previous choices.  [All future comments are only in reference to my thoughts, not my fellow student's.]

Is this penance?  I don’t think so, but let’s take a look.

penance n. 1 an act of self-punishment as reparation for guilt. 2 a (esp. in the RC and Orthodox Church) a sacrament including confesson of and absolution for a sin. b a penalty imposed esp. by a priest, or undertaken voluntarily, for a sin. (The Oxford American Dictionary and Language Guide. New York: Oxford University Press, 1999)

Am I engaged in self-punishment?  Certainly not.  Do I believe librarianship is a punishment?  Definitely not.  Do I believe that I sinned?  No, not in a religious sense.  There are no priests involved either.  And most importantly, whatever good I may end up doing as a librarian can in no way be absolution for my previous way of engaging, or not engaging, with the world.

I was raised as a Southern Baptist, so I have no well-defined sense of penance and absolution anyway.  What I have is only a sort of anthropological acquaintance with the concepts.

I also most certainly do not believe that being a librarian is in any way inherently morally good or even better than what I did before.  One can be a librarian and still not engage with the world, or even be heinously evil, especially in someone else’s eyes.

What I meant was that what I want to do, and be, as a librarian will equate to a much more positively moral choice, for me, than my choices earlier in life.  The same goes for my other dinner partner, I believe.  It is not being a librarian that will make a difference in our lives or in the world, but who we will be, and what we will do, as a librarian that will make the difference.

While some jobs may damn your soul, I do not believe that any job or profession will save your soul—neither in the here-and-now nor in the afterlife.

I cannot change my previous impact on the world.  I can only try to somewhat make up for it.  Atone maybe, in the sense of "make amends for."  And, of course, change my behavior now and in the future.

For those who may have decided to judge me negatively based on the context I set at the beginning, please be aware that it is highly unlikely that you might judge me more harshly than I myself have and do.  But to help you set any perceived moral indignation aside, please be aware that our government and the U.S. Army own me for another 18+ years.

That is a thought that daily terrifies me!  This fact should be very evident from many of my prior posts when coupled with the knowledge that I am an owned person.  E.g., see:

A Soldier Returns From Iraq  30 Jan 05
The criminals we call our leaders  30 Jan 05
I know I will take some flak for this one…  1 Feb 05  "Sometimes, unfortunately, other things, such as this, speak to me.  I used to try and ignore them.  I no longer can."
What does "Support the Troops" mean? 25 Mar 05
Melissa says "I Wish This Fit On A Car Bumper."  26 Mar 05
The story that I could not tell for Storytelling  26 Mar 05
The world is falling apart and America leads the charge…  27 May o5
‘Army of One’ to even more lies  5 Jun 05
No Child Left Behind…by the Military  3 Jul 05
Happy Independence Day  3 Jul 05
Bless you Dorothea and everyone else who has someone they care about deployed  5 Jul 05
My country ’tis of thee  5 Jul 05
True Patriots Act  13 Jul 05
Recruiting Command asks for my help  18 Jul 05
Returning troops and mental health  31 Jul 05
An Open Letter to the American Legion  1 Sep 05

That is most, but certainly not all, of my posts about the military.  The fact that I could be forced to again work for the people who use and abuse those trying to honorably serve their country is a terrifying thought to me.  Maybe I deserve it for my prior behavior.  But then I do not believe in "Just World Theory," nor many other similar sorts of theories, religious or secular.

Zick Rubin of Harvard University and Letitia Anne Peplau of UCLA have conducted surveys to examine the characteristics of people with strong beliefs in a just world. They found that people who have a strong tendency to believe in a just world also tend to be more religious, more authoritarian, more conservative, more likely to admire political leaders and existing social institutions, and more likely to have negative attitudes toward  underprivileged groups. To a lesser but still significant degree, the believers in a just world tend to "feel less of a need to engage in activities to change society or to alleviate plight of social victims."

Ironically, then, the belief in a just world may take the place of a genuine commitment to justice. For some people, it is simply easier to assume that forces beyond their control mete out justice. When that occurs, the result may be the abdication of personal responsibility, acquiescence in the face of suffering and misfortune, and indifference towards injustice. Taken to the extreme, indifference can result in the institutionalization of injustice. Still, the need to believe that the world is just can also be a positive force. The altruism of volunteers and of heroes who risk their lives to help strangers in need is a result of people trying to restore justice to insure that the world remains just.

I do not believe that the world is just.  Not by any stretch!  What I do believe is that the world ought to be just, the human/social parts of the world anyway.  Do I believe that it is possible to achieve?  No, not really.  Do I believe that we ought to try to the best of our abilities as humans?  Most certainly.

And that is where the librarianship comes in for me.  It is a means to a possible end.  It is not a given in that it alone will do nothing towards me reaching my goal.  I must remain present and committed to my goal of being a better human being and working towards a world that is more just.  For me, being a librarian will give me a better chance at staying the course towards that goal than many other occupational choices I might make.

Librarianship as penance? Not likely.

Another mistaken quiz

Another mistaken quiz!  I’m not arguing with the title, only with the description.  Who knows, maybe I answered what I wanted my answers to be instead of what they really should be as I live my life.  Actually, I think it was a mixture of (at least) those two types of answers.

The Fool Card
You are the Fool card. The Fool fearlessly begins the journey into the unknown. To do this, he does not regard the world he knows as firm and fixed. He has a seemingly reckless disregard for obstacles. In the Ryder-Waite deck, he is seen stepping off a cliff with his gaze on the sky, and a rainbow is there to catch him. In order to explore and expand, one must disregard convention and conformity. Those in the throes of convention look at the unconventional, non-conformist personality and think What a fool. They lack the point of view to understand The Fool’s actions. But The Fool has roots in tradition as one who is closest to the spirit world. In many tribal cultures, those born with strange and unusual character traits were held in awe. Shamans were people who could see visions and go on journeys that we now label hallucinations and schizophrenia. Those with physical differences had experience and knowledge that the average person could not understand. The Fool is God. The number of the card is zero, which when drawn is a perfect circle. This circle represents both emptiness and infinity. The Fool is not shackled by mountains and valleys or by his physical body. He does not accept the appearance of cliff and air as being distinct or real. Image from: Mary DeLave http://www.marydelave.com/

Which Tarot Card Are You?
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