[Yes, I realize that is a British (or alternative) spelling of judgment. I prefer it. It looks stupid to me otherwise.]
I know that many of you could care less, but I have added a section on many of my musical compilations to my web site. Perhaps I should stipulate that I mean since the era of CD recording, and, more importantly, the era of CD recording in my life.
I have made assorted compilations since at least 1979. All of these were meaningful to me in some sense. But beginning in 1999 and the experience of my divorce I began recording these more as musical diaries. As I say on the main music page:
The following is a list of the CDs that I have recorded mostly for myself, often for others. I got my audio CD recorder in mid-1999 about the time of my divorce because there were too many CDs to split. Seeing as that is also about the time I came back to life in a very real sense I naturally started recording compilation CDs – but from now on they’d serve in a more symbolic way. They became about the construction, deconstruction, reconstruction, delineation, and judgment of the world in which I find myself, and the one I would like to see realized… In other words, they are, in a sense, my diary. I’d like to issue a hearty caveat lector though. Do not read too deeply into any particular lyric, concept, etc. In some cases I have captured the mood better than in others, in some I can no longer recall the original meaning, sometimes I can but it has a different one now… These are all consequences of, or are they data, or maybe premises for, my theory of music.
You may notice that they start losing titles near the end. Lack of finished liner notes happened even sooner. This is a real shame as there is really no way to go back and do them. Meanings shift or are forgotten. The last several were recorded under some of the worst conditions of my life. I was recovering from severe clinical depression and the realities of the world in which I found myself—and in particular, my job—had me completely unbalanced and highly suicidal. Those last few rarely are listened to anymore; they are too painful.
The page ends kind of abruptly about this time in 2003. That is the last CD compilation—as diary—that I made. I did record a 2-disc compilation for jennimi in the very early days of this year based somewhat on another binary set that are “deeply” meaningfully named Cataloging Music and Cataloging Music 2. Thankfully I did a better job naming the compilations I sent her. Those are the only compilations I have recorded since August 2003. Grad school, even as ridiculously easy as an LIS education is, got in the way.
I would love to get back to the recording of music that is deeply meaningful to me. I am—again—trying to be better about journaling. Blogging has had a serious negative impact on keeping a journal of things not said out loud and publicly. Hopefully there is some meaning in those things I do say “out loud and publicly,” but there is far more in what is not said.
I also prefer judgement. I’m pretty sure this is how we were taught to spell it in grad school. I remember being very surprised to learn that the judgment variant was grammatically correct. And, it just looks weird!!!
I, too, spell “j… u… d… g… E… spell m… e… n… t judgement!” (was pretending to have soul for a second… well I mean, I DO have soul all the time, but my day job would have to trump my blues writing one – we’ll save the soul for the dancing at shows).
And I LOVE my mixtapes and love that a few of us out there like to surprise each other with them. And I can tell you offline about a few very cool peeps who LOVE mixtapes. One of them, by a certain LIS Guru who wants to be free, got me through some TOUGH stuff this summer. librarians_rawk. Even my flickr tag says so. hee. I actually need to add some new ones up there including aforementioned.
It’s like an unofficial mail_art tactile aural meme that has no specific rules or tags or purpose, yet is somethin….
Yeah, I don’t know what it is exactly. There are word forms from which we drop letters all the time and they look “normal” to me. You can even probably find a few “judgments” on my blog cause I got tired of Firefox telling me I was wrong and, on occasion, I sort of want to fit in.
I got over one of those and just told Firefox to use the damn correct orthographic variant already!
I don’t mean to be a prescriptivist, really. You are free to spell judgment either way. I just seriously prefer one over the other.
jennimi, you got plenty of soul! I see it in everything you do. And I’m looking forward to our upcoming offline conversations…. Unfortunately, there’s other things to do before October.
I was just recently longing for a mix tape I made for a boyfriend circa 1995. I know what one or two or three of the songs on it were, but not all of them. And I remember how deeply I felt the significance of them all, so I just wish I knew what they were…
Mostly so I can see how I’ve grown. Or not.
Also, clearly, JUDGEMENT.
Yes, these mixes can be important to our growth–whether to help it, hinder it, measure it, or simply to help us ruminate on it.
Glad to see so many folks opting to keep the e in judgement. I have had people ask me why I had that “second” (meaning the 1st) e in it and didn’t I know that it was wrong?”
Since I have had men and women ask me that it can’t be that you’re all women. Perhaps it’s the librarian angle. But I’ve seen librarians–many–spell it without on blogs and in print. Maybe it’s just the Jen— connection.
So ladies … there’s a Jennifer, a Jenn, a Jen!, and a Jenny missing. [Lord, I hope I'm not forgetting one.]
I made a comment about all the Jen—s I know the other day to a friend of mine, and when her husband asked “Who?”, she said, “You know, all the people who comment on his blog.”
What can I say? A boy can’t know too many Jen—s. At least not until he calls one of them by the wrong name!